Saturday, October 23, 2010

Vampires Suck (6)



the 16th of October, 2010

FABIAN

I figured taking pity on myself isn’t very dignifying, so I decided to do what I do best. Keep my distance and rely on my vampire shield. The fact that I have to go to Gabriel’s stupid party is troublesome, but the sooner I get it over with the better.
Now there’s only one minor detail left.

LAILA

Purse. Check. Keys. Check. Mirror reflection all right. Check.
He’s here. Just on time.

FABIAN

What is she staring at?

LAILA

Black shirt. Check. Faded jeans. Check. Leather jacket. Check. Impossibly gorgeous eyes. Check. Deadly smile. Check.
Oh, my God. Check.

After 2 minutes of gawking, I was fully recovered. That was, of course, until he took me down stairs to his car. The most incredible car ever – I have no idea what kind, but it looked good. I didn’t even know he had one.
Actually, I didn’t even know he knew how to dress up. I mean, he’s handsome all by himself, that I could tell. But tonight, he is especially attractive. There’s something about him – a sensual power that I never noticed. Of course, the usual sense of rejection is there, but it’s a lot more faded than all the previous times.
The street lights frame his figure just right. He’s opening the door for me. So he can be a gentleman when he wants.
But as soon as we were in the car, the spell broke. I tried making some small talk but his face was as impassible as ever. Yet, that seemed to attract me even more. What is wrong with me?

FABIAN

I’d like to ask mister-perfect-Edward-Cullen how he copped with girls like Laila. She seems to be... in a dreamlike state. Not that that doesn’t add to her personal appeal. She’s wearing this tight black dress with high leather boots. Ironically, we match quite well.

What am I talking about? Matching clothes? The blood I drunk must have been rotten. 

I parked just near Gabriel’s apartment complex. It was easy to find it since the music could be heard all the way down the block. This vampire sure likes to attract attention. But then again, I already knew that.

LAILA

So his apartment is actually a penthouse. That’s nice. And surprising. Don’t see many of those in this city, you know. Oh, but Gabriel’s music tastes are as awfull as Fabian’s.

FABIAN

I think Laila and I just entered the Twilight zone – or should I say, the Gabriel zone. This place looks like a strip club from hell. The majority of people are girls, as I suspected. What good could one of Gabriel’s parties do without his fan club?
But there’s something different about them this time. No squeaking. No fainting. Not even a little bit of giggling. No, the atmosphere seems to be electrically charged somehow. And… I can sense an intense hunger.
Yes, hunger.
But for what?
As I walked through the various crouds with Laila by my side, I noticed they were all looking our way. The hunger in their eyes intensified. But I just couldn’t place it. No, there weren’t any vampires here besides myself, but the need I felt building up in the air was as great as bloodlust.
And then we reached the living room. Here people were moving all around as if caressing the air with their bodies. They’re dancing, my mind told me. But I kept thinking of some sort of obscene ritual. And then I knew what they were hungry for – pleasure. Primal pleasure and nothing else.
I could see Laila out of the corner of my eye and saw her expression almost exactly mirrored my own bewilderment.

LAILA

Oh, my God, I’ve landed in Slutville.
When Gabriel invited me and Fabian, I was expecting some sort of elaborate tea party. Not in a hundred years could I have guessed he was planning to run for best-orgy-of-the-year!
The air is sickeningly sweet. Everywhere I turn, I’m being looked at from head to toe.
“Are they checking me out?” I asked Fabian when I couldn’t take it anymore.
“They’re ckecking us out. And that implies you, as well.”
“But they’re girls!” I started to freak out when a hand grabbed me from behind and I shrieked. Fabian pulled my hand and led me towards a long corridor. At that moment, I couldn’t care less where he was taking me if that meant we were far away from those harassing chicks.
By the time I finished mentally cursing them, Fabian had led me into an empty room. Or so I thought it was until I heard a soft moan.

FABIAN

“Gabriel, what is this? You’d better explain yourself.” My voice was thick with anger and I could feel Laila cringe from the sound of it.
The bed’s curtains moved slightly as a lazy voice purred.
“Do you mind? I’m not finished yet.”
“YES, I DO MIND!” I shouted, not being able to contain my fury any longer. Probably Gabriel picked up on that and I heard him say “We’ll continue this later, darling.”
As the naked girl eased out of the bed, I looked at Laila. She was flushed with embarrassment and indignation and refused to look at anybody.
The blonde vampire finally spoke again after covering himself with a silk robe. He’d done that for Laila’s sake, not mine.
“It is rude to interrupt one while he is having a good time, Fabian.”
“The hell it is. What’s this party supposed to be anyway? Because whatever it is, I sure don’t want to be a part of it.” I started turning for the door.
But Gabriel was at my throat in an instant. “You should learn your manners.” Laila gasped in shock. Gabriel’s fingers were digging in my skin.
“You’re one to talk.” I tried to pry them loose, but it was like some impossible force was in them. Gabriel smiled as he saw the realization I’d come to.
“Yes, my boy, I am far more experienced than you.” And then, as abruptly as he had caught me, he let go. “And all this time you thought you could avoid me… IGNORE me as if I were merely an annoying fly.” Gabriel was heading towards Laila. She had turned pale now and her white skin seemed almost translucent against her black clothes. She could sense the danger too.
“But we didn’t ignore you, Gabriel. We’re here now.” Laila mumbled.
“True. But you do not like my party.” He was stroking her cheek now and she flinched.
“What’s there to like? You’ve… you’ve hypnotized all of them.” Even as the words left my mouth, I knew they were true. The look in Gabriel’s eyes – the hunger you could see in them – I’d already seen it.
“Hypnotized?” Laila frowned. “Uhm…”
That is a suitable reaction, I said to myself. And then I stared at Gabriel, speechless. How old did he had to be to be able to hypnotize humans? Very, very old, that’s for sure.
It now occurred to me that he was right. I’d never treated him as anything remotely worthwhile of my attention. We had met in 1953 when the communism had been successfully installed in Romania. I’d always thought he was the same age in vampire years as I was. But that was his doing, of course. He’d been concealing his strength and abilities. But – for what purpose? He’d been pestering me every ten years or so ever since.
Gabriel was certainly delighted to have found a new toy. He circled Laila like a predator and then from behind he touched her chin lightly. Or so it would have seemed to the average man. But I knew the deadly hold he had on her. And judging from Laila’s wide-eyed expression, she knew that as well.
“Gabriel, if this is a joke, you’ve gone far enough. Damn, it’s hilarious! You’re an artist when it comes to pranks!” I was forcing myself into talking nonsense in order to distract him from the delicious blood Laila was showing in her veins.
“But Fabian”, he paused slightly as if the whole discussion was being directed – “you two are just too fun to tease.”
“So you keep saying. Your repertoire has gone old.” My voice sounded as arrogant as I felt. “Even so, if you do something rash this instant, I shall tear you apart, experience included or not.” And as if to prove my point, I flashed just a hint of fang. A gesture I knew Gabriel would see, but not Laila. In the end, the retort I was expecting never came.
Instead, Gabriel looked pleased and for the second time this night, he surprised me giving Laila a quick kiss on the neck and then releasing her.
“You may be dismissed.” He waved us off.
“We may be dismissed? What are you – some whimsical prince?” Laila had finally found her voice. She was shaking and I noted that it was from anger, not from fear. I had to give her credit for that.
“Not at all, my darling Laila. But I have now confirmed a theory of mine and your presence is no longer needed.” He eyed me in a conspirator’s manner. “Nevertheless, you should know that these parties are one of my unique pleasures. I do not wish to hide this side of me from you. I hope that you too will one day share my point of view, Fabian.” he concluded while staring out the window.
“Fuck you”, I said the words at the exact time as Laila.
We were already outside the room when Gabriel’s forbidden laughter started and an echo resonated in the living room – “yes, please”. And then some more laughter.


Sunday, October 17, 2010

Vampires Suck (5)


 
FABIAN

Blog entry #3

Title: Seeking ageless wisdom
Listening to: Nirvana – Come as you are

“Do you think age will make you wiser?
 People often believe in the illusion of gathering experience.
It helps – sometimes.
But most of the times, our mistakes are new. Even when they seem to repeat themselves, they are always fresh because of our naivety, always making us look like fools, regardless of our age.
For some of us, that wisdom never comes. And so, we are stuck in a mistaken moment of our foolish lives.
But perhaps, with age, we’ll come to think differently about...

WHAT THE-

The electricity’s out. So much for living in the 21st century. Where did I put the damned candles?
BANG!
And the lighter?
BANG! BANG! BANG!
Who the hell is trying to demolish my door??
I couldn’t sense any menacing threat. It was human. Its feelings were also very jumbled. I opened the door and a little figure enveloped in darkness tackled me. While falling, I still could not figure out how to react. Some vampire I am.
Finally, the coolness of the floor awoke me from my surprise.
On top of me lay a very fragile girl who sniffed and hiccupped simultaneously. 
“I’m afraid... hic... of the dark...” Laila gripped my T-shirt more tightly. After a few seconds, I sensed a funny smell.
“Laila, have you been drinking?”
She sat up abruptly which only cause her to stumble. Her eyes seemed out of focus as she tried to intimidate me by looking me straight in the face.
“Oh, mighty Fabian, I for-hic-got about your morals.”
I have to admit, I was biting my lower lip in order to prevent myself from laughing. Yes, laughing would only make it worse.
“Would you mind getting off of me?” I then asked.
“No.”
“Laila...”
“I’m scared.” she stubbornly added. There was another hiccup after this. How could a girl her age get drunk like that?
“Why are you afraid of the dark? There’s nothing...” But as soon as I saw her expression, I stopped. Such enormous fear.
“Laila...”
And then she did the most unexpected thing. She bent down and kissed me.
I could feel the heat radiating from her lips, the sweet softness they brought upon my mouth. I was stunned.
But my instincts weren’t. I started feeling the familiar ache. My fangs were itching to come out, my thirst rising with each second like hot boiling water.
NO – I pulled from her grasp and tried to look away from those green eyes. I knew they would be hurt, but I couldn’t think of her pride now. Keeping her alive seemed more appropriate. But instead of reproachful words, she collapsed on my chest. After taking a few deep breathes, I trusted myself to look at her. Sure enough, she was sleeping sound.
 
the 6th of October, 2010

LAILA

Ugh, my head hurts. No, *hurt* is a mild term. Every time I try to remember how I ended up in my bed last night I feel a stabbing pain.
I have to remember. I feel like my life depends on it. Well, maybe not exactly that dramatic, but still – I WANT to remember.
Retracing my steps one more time.
1. I went out to buy some alcohol from the supermarket
2. I came back and started drinking what I had just purchased
3. the lights went out
And that’s when my mind goes blank too.
ARGHHHHHHH, HOW FRUSRATING!

the 11th of October, 2010

FABIAN

She hasn’t said a word to me ever since. She barely glances my way when we’re in class. She acts as if it never HAPPENED. I can’t feel a single wave of anger or distress from her when we pass each other in the halls.
She’s acting normal. Or as normal as Laila can get. And that is precisely why her behavior is wrong. She has to REACT to... it somehow, doesn’t she?
At this point, I couldn’t even bring myself to believe what I was doing. It was like a dream – a nasty dream in which I had joined Gabriel and his fan club in the courtyard.
Surrounded on either side, Gabriel was sitting on a bench and could barely contain his surprise as he saw me coming. He ushered the girls away quickly and settled more comfortably, looking at me with a sly smile. If I weren’t already dead, I’d say this was how selling your soul to devil feels like.
“I can’t believe I’m doing this”, I repeated to myself and sat down defeated. Gabriel’s smile was getting wider and wider. And more wicked too.
“I take it you are here for advice.” he lightly said.
“Wha-? Are you a witch or a vampire? How did you know that?”
“Centuries of studying these petty human beings’ facial expressions. And I’ve got to hand it to you, that hunched walk you’re managing is obvious from a mile away.”
“I’ll pretend that made sense and you’re actually in position of giving me advice.” I then went on in a hurried voice “let’s say a person kisses another person and then pretends it never happened...”
“You mean you kissed Laila and now she’s ignoring you.” Gabriel interrupted me in a flat tone.
“No! I mean, yes, only it’s the other way around. And she’s ignored me before, but...” I couldn’t find my words fast enough, damn it.
“But this is different.” Gabriel mused “so she kissed you. Any circumstantial details you’d like to share?”
“Well, I think she was drunk.” I sighed.
“Drunk?? Our cute and fragile Laila? You must have been hallucinating.” Gabriel literally humpf-ed at me. “why would she let herself fall in such a depriving state for a young lady?”
“You tell me, you’re the stupid expert on women’s way of thinking!”
I was feeling like a complete idiot. Of course Gabriel couldn’t be serious even for one minute. What did it matter anyway? But as I was about to leave, Laila appeared in front of us.

LAILA

I’d never seen Fabian so uncomfortable. I only wanted to ask him if he knew why our electricity pane was so old. As for Gabriel – he was his usual incomprehensible self. He kept pushing for details from the night when the electricity fell.
“And what did you do by yourself all alone in the dark?” Gabriel asked teasingly. I felt the heat creep in my face. I couldn’t possibly admit I didn’t remember.
“I went to bed.” I answered in a quiet voice.
“No kissing before bed time?” Gabriel pushed. Fabian glanced at him. I noted that Fabian looked positively frightened.
“No, no kissing.” I laughed. This person is always so exuberant. He must have really been joking.
“That’s a pity, darling.” but as Gabriel said this he was eyeing the dark-haired man next to him. Then his face lit up like a child’s. “I just remembered! I’m having another one of my parties – Fabian, I’ve told you – and it would be wonderful if you two could come.”
Fabian started to protest, but he was suddenly cut off. “You should definitely come.”
There was no room for a refusal there. But even so, I felt a jolt of eagerness at those words. I hadn’t been to a party in some time. Time to wipe the dust off my dancing shoes.
Fabian didn’t seem too pleased though.

GABRIEL

“Come on, there’s no need for such a face. You look like your aunt just died. Well, supposing you had one that was still alive.”
“I’m not coming.” Fabian said through gritted teeth. His eyes seemed to reflect an angry sea.
“Now, now, don’t bite. If you won’t come willingly, I’ll just have to tell little Laila what she obviously doesn’t remember.” This was sure to convince him, I thought.
“You wouldn’t dare.”
“Try me.” I gave him my most grave expression. The realization seemed to dawn on him.
“Fine. I just don’t understand what you’re up to, Gabriel.” Fabian sat up and left. He was angry, all right.
“It’s for my own amusement, of course.”
 
the 15th of October, 2010

LAILA

nowhere_girl has added hot_fangs to her list of friends

hot_fangs: tomorrow night, 9 o’clock
hot_fangs: wear something pretty :-)
nowhere_girl: I always dress pretty!!!
nowhere_girl: hey, wait
nowhere_girl: I don’t know where you live
hot_fangs: oh, don’t worry
hot_fangs: Fabian will escort you

hot_fangs is now offline

nowhere_girl: no waaay

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Vampires Suck (4)


the 24th of September, 2010

LAILA

“Laila, it’s me, your father. Stop rolling your eyes and listen to me. I was forced to run away – where to or why I cannot tell you in this letter because it might get intercepted.
I just wanted you to know that I promise I’ll be back for you. And that will be before I go completely bald, okay?
Take care of yourself. If not for me, for your mother at least.”

Touching. I’ll just go wallow in self pity now.

FABIAN

It’s almost midnight. I don’t have to look at the clock to know that. I just know. Or should I say – my vampire self is aware of it. This city is so quiet around this hour. Quiet, yet it speaks to me. It calls to me. Or is it the night itself that does so? I tend to think both. There is something about this worn-out place –
I just heard something from Laila’s apartment. Sort of a scream. How many rats can there be in one building?

Again.
Something is wrong. I can sense...

LAILA

...DESPAIR.
Where am I?
A place with endless walls, all painted in black.
I realized I was shouting, but there was no echo to it. No, there was no sound at all. My voice only exists in my head.
I need to get out. I need to break free.
It feels as if I’ve been running for a very long time. But this place never ends, the walls never change, the darkness just gets deeper...
And then there was nothing but pain.
PAIN.
Why does it hurt so bad? Oh, my God, I’ve never felt so thorn apart! Why is this happening? My soul feels like it’s being twisted over and over again.
And then, I couldn’t breathe anymore.
“Wake up...” I could hear a very faint voice in the dark.
“Laila! Can you hear me?” the voice started getting louder.
“WAKE UP!”

I woke up to Fabian’s worried face. His hair was all messed up and he was panting. His eyes held a strange intensity. He was sitting on the side of my bed, with his shirt unbuttoned, cradling me like a new-born.
Wait a minute.
“Let go of me!” I almost fell out of bed trying to release myself from his cold embrace. Cold? No, I must be feverish.
“What the hell are you doing in my bedroom? How did you get in?” I then started to mentally curse myself for forgetting to lock the door, when he lifted one hand and pointed at the window.
“Through there. My balcony is next to your window.” He said so matter-of-factly. It was as if he were telling me that tomorrow’s chances of rain are high.
“W-what??” I managed. Sure enough, the window was open and we were only on the 2nd floor, but it was outrageous!
“Have you gone completely nuts, mister??”
“If you question my sanity, the answer is quite vague. But I would fear yours is in more trouble than mine is, since you were having such a strong nightmare. Has this happened before?”
“You are unbelievable! First you break into my home and now you’re the one ASKING me questions?”
“You should seriously consider telling someone about those nightmares...”
“What nightmares? Not that it matters, but this is the first time I had one this strange. But what am I telling a pervert like you for?” I raised my hands to the ceiling.
“A pervert? Look, I think you’ve got this the wrong way.” He looked quite flustered this time. Points for me.
“Oh, really! So you mind explaining to me how you got the idea of climbing through my window in the middle of the night?”


the 30th of September, 2010

FABIAN & GABRIEL

hot_fangs@yahoo.com wants to add you as a friend.
YES                         NO

hot_fangs: hey, why did you refuse my invitation?
hot_fangs: seriously, who the hell is edward? WTF, are you gay??? is he your long lost love? :-)
hot_fangs: BUZZ!
edward_cant_bite: i wonder what will happen if I push the SPAM button... :-?
hot_fangs: haha
hot_fangs: you’re joking right?
hot_fangs: honestly, I don’t know why I even bother to talk to you
hot_fangs: must be because of that cute face you make when you’re angry *audible: I’m melting*
edward_cant_bite: now who’s gay? :-)
hot_fangs: who said I wasn’t?
edward_cant_bite: ah... didn’t you like women?
hot_fangs: haven’t you heard of bisexuals? man, you’re such a prude
edward_cant_bite: ah... well I’m flattered
hot_fangs: hey
edward_cant_bite: but...
hot_fangs: stop right there
hot_fangs: I’m not hitting on you
edward_cant_bite: that’s a relief
hot_fangs: your love affairs with wimpy human women are just too much fun to watch >:)
edward_cant_bite: what??
hot_fangs: I saw you at the bookstore with that laila girl
edward_cant_bite: that I can explain
hot_fangs: no need
hot_fangs: I saw the whole my-jewels-hurt scene too
hot_fangs: you know, if you need lessons about how to treat a lady, I’m always available
edward_cant_bite: fuck off
hot_fangs: just saying
hot_fangs: if you need me...
edward_cant_bite: scram

the 4th of October, 2010

LAILA

I hate Mondays. And I hate new *beginnings*. All that nonsense about how change is good for you – I don’t buy it. It’s tiring. Having to adapt to a new place, I mean. But above all else, new people.
New faces, new attitudes. I dread those attitudes the most.
The first 30 seconds when entering a room full of unknown people are a battlefield. Yes, a bloody battlefield in which the stares are daggers and the whispers are smoke bombs. And then, when you finally reach your desk, they decide whether you’re worthy of their presence or not.
That’s all it takes. 30 seconds.
I’ve always been afraid of starting anew. That is particularly why you can imagine my loathing on the first day at the University.
The main reason was this – the students there were not people. Not even human.
They were girls.
Sure, they would be guys too, but not as many since we’re speaking of a degree in literature. Now tell me, how many of your guy friends read? I thought so.
Well, seeing how I’m constantly preoccupied with fashion magazines (and Horror books, don’t forget to mention that), you would assume I was quite the popularity queen and if not, at least one of her highness’s minions.
Wrong assumption.
So I like Louis Vuitton. And Channel. And all those other French guys whose names I can’t remember. That alone is not enough to make that species like me. Oh, how ironical that I’m a part of the same species.
For some reason, I could never quite bond with girls as well as I did with boys. Now there’s a species to be admired. Not all of them, of course. But some of the specimens are to die for.
Back to the subject. I always enjoyed male company the best. Am I a tom-boy? At heart, maybe. On the surface – hardly.
What to do? I can’t back down now. Oh yeah, that arrogant Fabian will be there. Unfortunately, he’s an-old-lady-that-lives-with-her-cats at heart.
My worst nightmare begins now.
Hope this will end quickly and without any great pains. Guy radar on.

FABIAN

I HATE MONDAYS. Especially the first Monday when courses start.
Why, you might ask. It’s quite simple. Every time I go to a new university, I have to go through the pains of making my position clear. Yes, I mind you sitting next to me. Yes, I’m ignoring you. Yes, you should just get over it. Yes, you’re damn right I’m rude and inconsiderate.
All that girly giggling and elbowing is driving me insane. Sometimes I wonder if I should just try another specialty. Literature is most appealing to the female side after all.
Anyway, Gabriel’s presence here is not of much help. He’s even worse than the girls, speaking loudly and attracting all the attention. I must remember not to associate with him during class or else I’m doomed.
Oh, Laila’s sitting in front of me. I don’t think she even noticed me. She has her headphones on. Now that’s the reaction I was looking for. Total oblivion. But does a vampire ever get what he wants? As Twilight has taught us, not if you don't sparkle.

LAILA

Wow, now that’s a first. I actually had fun today. I mean, at the end when Fabian ran for the door before Gabriel and his human tail of love-struck girls could reach him was hilarious. I was wiping tears from my eyes because of all the laughing when I noticed there were a few other girls doing the same. What do you know? I’m not the only one with decent tastes, after all.

the 5th of October, 2010

FABIAN

“You’re getting on my nerves and I do not recommend that to anyone.”
“Oh, come on, you dork. It’s just a harmless party. Besides, you haven’t seen my new place.” Gabriel’s mocking voice was on the phone.
“Yes, and that’s top on my list of things to do tonight.” I added equally mockingly.
There was a pause.
“You have a list?”
“No, you idiot! But supposing I had one... Never mind, I’m not coming and that’s final.”
“But I was hoping you could bring your cute neighbor and we could all have a ménage-“

I hung up before he could say it.
LAILA

Huh, who knew I could get bored living by myself.
I finished all the episodes in this season’s Grey’s Anatomy.
I ate all the chocolate.
I did some Pilates so I wouldn’t feel so guilty about the chocolate.
I re-read all my old comics.
I stared out the window and tried catching a sound from next-door.
I even painted my toenails.
...................................................................................................
GOD, I’M BORED.
...................................................................................................
I need a DISTRACTION.